Ghee Khatam
I have occupied a liminal space in my life for quite long. I have seen the life at the margins. When I was younger Vice, the magazine and the documentary film maker, used to attract me. Vice has collapsed like all good things and probably might have shut down too. I on the other hand have had experience although at the metaphysical plane which I would say are quite Vice-like and so I report because actual reporters are busy doing sycophancy and since I have seen it I wouldn't blame them as the terror is existential on you and your family once you know enough about this nation and the way it operates. Though a lot of media in this is like Jack Gyllenhaal in Nightcrawler minus the charm of course. The best part about this nation is that even if you quietly get raped by, what I would call the base structure which as I realised in the past decade is all about rape and no it is not an understatement it's quite literal it just that it is not visible, there are no existential guarantees of survival. The inversion is absolute. Habitual, entitled and career rapists make decisions on morality and law in this country and it happens at the base itself. A career rapist whose primary "skill" is rape (if we can even call it that) and other skills are secondary would judge you on how many times you jack off in a day. Rape is a way of compensation to the enforcers of divide and rule. When I witnessed this thing, and this is a thing that you can only witness at a personal level and would sound batshit when you put it into words though I decided to go ahead with it anyway, I realised that all the knowledge of culture and civilization I had was redundant because when culture doesn't emanate form the base and the base is operated by feudal rape gangs it has no meaning. The incompetent feudal and capitalist (the assholes who have their heads in west's asshole) assholes completely destroyed my refined and intricate culture, last carriers of it being the grandfathers and grandmothers who have now passed away, and replaced it with a mongrel performative hyperreality. The suffering in the past decade for me has been intense but I'm glad that I had it because someone had to go down the rabbithole to fetch the truth. Because I have seen the bottom of abyss I am sure that this country has internally collpased and civilization doesn't really exist except as a hyperreality and that you can see in the "ghee khatam" boys and "chatpati" girls of Gen Z. I have already mourned and grieved and what remains for me is just personal.