Wolf's Bane
I ended up realising that most important thing in life is not wasting any time intentionally and with that comes doing your best with whatever capacity you have at the time. The good thing about this is that if you do this you do not have any regrets in your life. The problem of the world we live in is that criminals are free to do whatever with themselves and others but a good man has to be correct at all times and if he is not the consequences for it are severe so it is important to do what one thinks is right at all times again so there are no regrets. I have had an extremely hard life, which wouldn't have been an issue if I didn't have any resources but I had and yet I had an extremely hard life which is in some ways worse than having a hard life with lack of resources. It's like having a buffet spread in front of you with your lips sewn shut and you see the buffet in front of you rotting. Destiny, or should I say the politics of the world, is cruel like that. I was a fan of pop culture like comics and cartoons when I was a kid. Turns out I had to pay for every comics that I read, every cartoon I watched, every cable television show I watched and every computer game and book I had read and again despite paying for them when I originally consumed them. It told me about transactional nature of our existence and how existence itself can be turned into exploitation. I started torrenting books, games and movies when I was in college. Torrenting was a popular method and arguably only method to access media back then. And I had to pay for that too. I had to pay for both the media of my childhood and college with suffering and it is then I realised that what is God is not actually God. It is something that exploits. The best part is that I hadn't done anything to be exploited and it is later I realised that one doesn't have to. My fault was that I was aware enough to notice when I am getting exploited and that is a reason enough to get exploited again. Awareness is dangerous but it also gives perspective. I started writing only when I realised that those who will not be exploited won't be in any case and those who will get exploited will get anyways and so I decided to write to bring awareness. The exploitation needs reason and when one becomes aware, identity is retrofitted on the exploitation and then it becomes persecution and the identity becomes the main component. I do not regret even one thing in my life except lazyness in doing homework in my childhood. Wherever and whenever I went off the rails I did because I thought it is a safe place to go off the rails, plus I haven't ever really thought ill of anyone in my life. Truth is there isn't a safe place or, as liberals call it, safe space in this world. Safe space is an illusion, the idea of safe space is a myth. I have seen the process of snowballing, how things get escalated. The thing to know about escalation is that only those escalate who can handle it either this or those who do not bother about the consequences of the escalation. When every pop culture and media you have ever consumed can be made to be a reason for discrimination, can be exploited back, can be made you to pay again and in suffering with infinite interest or is made to be a favour that was given out of kindness when you have paid for it with your own money, you realise that the entity you are dealing with is petty and inferior and you realise that only two recreations are the nature and the universe through the night sky. A good man has to be right at all times, and that's the bane of choosing goodness. But what a good man can do is not waste any time and doing the best in his capacity and when the good man gets tired he could confide in little joys of life.